Soul at Rest
by Moriah Steiner
This article first appeared in the September/October 2016 edition of Daughters of Promise.
The must-do’s, should-do’s, try-to-do’s, and can’t-do’s crowd our lives. I feel the push and pull every day. From the tug of little ones on my arms and sweet voices that beckon me to sit with them, to the nagging feelings that I should leave the house and help the least of these.
You should probably know a few things about me. I’m a long time worrier being daily refined by God’s grace. I’m totally introverted and will often choose quiet alone time over a noisy get together. I’ve been married to a wonderful man for almost nine years. He is a confident, straight-forward and fearless leader, but also leans toward an introverted nature. I have two sweet, funny, loud and energetic girls ages two and four and we are fostering another sweet, funny, loud and quite energetic girl who is almost one. Our family has been living and serving in Uganda for the past year and we are here on a three-year term.
I often feel guilty that I am not doing enough.
I feel like I have to be crazy busy to deserve rest. Rest must be earned. In a culture that screams hustle, I don’t feel like I have enough of it. In a world that shouts the needs and heartache of so many around me, I don’t feel like I am serving as well as I should.
How do we quiet the cries of guilt and listen for the call of God? When I write, I hash out thoughts that are laid heavy on my heart. Let’s look at this question together, and uncover true rest for the soul that only the Lord can offer
FEELINGS OF GUILT AND SHAME THAT WE ARE NOT ENOUGH ARE FROM THE DEVIL.
Have you ever noticed that when you feel guilty about something you continue to dwell on it Dwelling in a place of guilt and shame is not what God calls us to do. God calls us to freedom in Him.
“Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” 2 Corinthians 3:17, NIV
I’m beginning to understand that just because I feel guilty about not doing something, doesn’t mean it’s a call from the Lord to do something. When these feelings of guilt arise it is important to read the Bible and pray. Ask the Lord for discernment in determining where these feelings of guilt are coming from. Is it a conviction from the Lord, lovingly calling us to His path, or is it a seed of discontent and shame planted from the devil that works to steal our joy and draw us out of being intentional with our moments?
GOD HAS CREATED US WITH DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES FOR A REASON AND BY DESIGN.
“We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith; if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.” Romans 12:6-8, NIV
There is rest in knowing the work is finished. It is not through our works but by God’s grace that we are saved. It is a gift. Our hope is not in how much we can do and accomplish each day, but in Jesus! If we place our worth in productivity and business, we are missing out on the rest that Jesus calls us to in Him. We miss out on allowing our weary souls to be revived and renewed by the steadfast love of our Savior. We are enough because He is more than enough!
“Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him.” Psalm 62:5, NIV
Sisters, I pray that you will find true rest in the Lord. This isn’t a call to be lazy, make excuses, or only serve yourself. This is a call to bring your weary soul to the Lord. A call to know that no matter what is happening in your world right now, you truly can rest in Him. We don’t have to worry about being enough or doing enough. What we need is to turn towards Christ and invite Him to work in our lives. Only when we draw close to Jesus and work to fulfill His purpose with the very gifts we’ve been given can we find true rest. Let’s leave behind the guilt, the feelings of shame, the belief that we have to do it all, and the crazy busy hustle that leaves our souls empty and lacking. Let’s take our weariness and our burdens and lay them down at the feet of Jesus. You don’t have to do more, only what He has called you for. Whatever season you are in, you can find rest in Jesus.
“Then Jesus said, ‘Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:28-29, NIV
Moriah is a Daughter of Christ, wife to Dustin, mama to two very adorable little girls, expecting a baby January 2017 and currently serving with her family in Uganda. She is an introvert by nature, but loves connecting with other women and working to encourage them in their journeys. She is growing in her walk with the Lord each day and is so thankful for His never ending grace. You can find her unscrambling her thoughts as a wife, mama, and grace-seeker at ohtinygifts.com, where she hopes her musings help all those that read.